juxtozyest (juxtozyest) wrote,
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I'd like to take this time to...

Well, first off I want to post this writing that I just found whilst researching Act Up! written by Charles Clifton.

The Past, The Present and The Future

By Charles Clifton 1959 – 2004

I'm tired from "tops" who believe they can't contract HIV. I'm tired from "bottoms" who continue to roll the dice. I'm tired from irresponsible HIV-positive barebackers. I'm tired from irresponsible HIV-negative barebackers. I'm tired of the belief that barebackers are always gay men. I'm tired, because it ain't true. I'm tired of condoms. I'm tired for everyone waiting for the results to come back from an HIV test. I'm tired.

I'm tired for intravenous drug users who share contaminated needles. I'm tired for men who refuse to use a condom. I'm tired for the women and men forced to have sex with men who refuse to use a condom. I'm tired for sex workers who can't use a condom. I'm tired for young people who don't have sex education. I'm tired of prevention that doesn't seem to work. I'm tired.

I'm tired from individuals who promote conspiracy rather than care. I'm tired from those who don't believe in re-infection. I'm tired from medications that make people sick rather than well. I'm tired from people who could, but don't, adhere. I'm tired for everyone in America, Africa, Asia and Eastern Europe who would adhere, but can't. I'm tired from a system that profits from homelessness, hunger and mental illnesses. I'm tired from illiteracy. I'm tired.

I'm tired from some that believe women and children, the incarcerated and drug users don't deserve our attention. I'm tired because some believe that gay men don't deserve our attention. I'm tired from blacks that blame whites. I'm tired from whites that blame blacks. I'm tired from men who blame women. I'm tired from women who blame men. I'm tired from MSMs, SAMs, "trade" and "on the downlow." I'm tired of categories. I'm tired.

I'm tired of incompetent negatives. I'm tired of unqualified positives. I'm tired of bureaucracy. I'm tired of cynics. I'm tired of the hypocrites. I'm tired of the dishonesty. I'm tired because I don't know what to do. I'm tired of being stressed, depressed, and overwhelmed. I'm tired because I don't have time to do more. I'm tired because I don't feel like doing more. I'm tired.

I'm tired from Slavery. I'm tired from Emancipation. I'm tired from Jim Crow. I'm tired from Civil Rights, Women's Rights, Gay/Lesbian Rights and now Healthcare Rights. I'm tired from prejudice and hatred. I'm tired from ignorance. I'm tired that mistakes from the past continue to be repeated. I'm tired.

I'm tired from John F. Kennedy, Martin Luther King, Jr., Robert Kennedy and my father. I'm tired from the events of September 11, 2001. I'm tired for this nation. I'm tired for this world. I'm tired for everyone who has ever lost someone to a senseless act of violence. I'm tired for everyone who will lose a loved one in the coming days, weeks and months.

I'm tired of grieving. I'm tired of remembering. I'm tired of wondering. I'm tired that I still grieve the death of Antonio, who died 15 years ago on October 8th. I'm tired of marking the anniversary of his death. I'm tired of wondering of what might have been. I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of coping. I'm tired of dates that always remind me of how tired I am. I'm tired of wondering what's next, who's next. I'm tired of this road.

I'm just tired.

Charles E. Clifton
1959 – 2004

On that note I would like to tell everyone about the AIDs walk that will be going on in New York on Sunday, May 21st. I know Erin has already sent in her registration form, and I'm in the process of convincing my mom to let me go. I urge all of you to try and make it as well. Let's try to fix some of the issues on the home front since the governement is too busy abroad to notice that this ships been sinking fast for the past twenty-five+ years. The sad thing is that this is only one of so many catastrophies that might have been averted had we gotten off our pretentious high horses and just got real.

At this point I'm tired of sitting on my ass because someone might not like what I have to shout while running down the halls, and because people don't want to be reminded that it's bloody well time for them to open up their eyes.
I'm tired of a lazy country.
So let's give them a shitload of hell folks, it's been awhile, and I think it's time we had another round of 'those agitators.

OH! and also, Day of Silence is coming up soon. I myself will be wearing duct tape over my mouth being that I have rather a hard time of keeping it shut, but it also gets it noticed more than just sitting quiet for a day. I know Erin was going to look up rainbow coloured duct tape for the occasion, I'll have to poke her about that but either way I urge you please participate!!! Our silence one just this one day is really what os many are going through everyday.

Give 'em hell!
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